FOR MY DEAREST UNCLE- ANG KIM SWEE
ah yee called me at 9am. she broke the news to me: " Uncle has passed away." NO NO!!! this is just another april fool joke rights? i'm sure it is! i m sure i m sure i m sure. but, i was wrong. it was real.
uncle. the only man i truly called uncle other than ah chek. he is always so nice to me. we had wonderful times at hong kong together. he always drove my father, mother and me home. he always fix my computer for me. he loves to go west mall. and he always asks me why i never chio him go. he loves ah gu's toasted bread.
uncle. the man who is the same age as my father. why must u leave so early? why can't u wait for my graduation? i have already thought of reserving a seat for u during my graduation. uncle ah uncle, why won't u be able anymore to send me off to US? why wun u wait for ah jie and ah ben to get married and for u to be a grand-dad den? uncle ah uncle, why did u bear to leave so early, leaving ah jie and ah ben to be orphans? esp when auntie has left all of u so early? i know u are joining her in another world, but why are u gone so early?
uncle. the man who always seems so happy. u have always ask me if i passed my driving lesson. u have always ask me when will i be buying a sports car. u showed me your camera when u just bought it. u showed me your phone which was identical to ben's. i accompanied you and pam and ben to buy your NEC laptop together where i was so auntie and requested for a free mouse. u laugh at me. u said i was super ah soh.
uncle. the man who always like to disturb me with a loud "HOR, meishan". uncle, u helped me to get a computer at $1.5 k where u helped me fix it yourself. uncle, u helped me to wire up my computer wires at home. u always complained that my hse is super messy when u come fix my computer. u always say i m very niam nuai. u always say that i anyhow press the computer and that is why i kanna virus.
uncle, the man i respected so much. i have always praised about u. about how u managed to bring the family up despite the loss of your wife abt 10 years back. do u know that u are so capable? while working, u can cook, do the housework and keep the house so tidy? i helped you move house. i love your curries. i love the way you drive. i love the way u always make fun of me.
uncle, the man who is constantly bitching about your children to me. you always got a bottle of water in your car that u always ask us to wash before entering the car. you are always my mahjong khakis. you always scold me for not knowing how to play mahjong. u once said that if i do that stun again in mahjong, i will have to pao the whole set paying everyone in full. from there onwards, i learn my mistakes. u are also my food guider. always bringing and driving the family to eat at cool places.
uncle, the man who said that your friends mentioned that the japanese restaurant at hong leong garden there was nice. and u wanna try. can i bring you there now to try? u wake up now can? pleaseeee, uncle. i beg you. uncle, wake up la, i know u are just tired and u just wanna sleep. but u have slept too long already. can u pls wake up? pls???
uncle, the man who all will agree that u are super helpful. you have a heart of gold. you know your stuffs. you always tell me how good in com ah ben is. you always ask me abt my dad and mum. i rmbed you got a nice jacket when we went too hong kong last nov. it was green and you liked it a lot. you always complain u are hungry.
uncle, the man who i just saw 4 days ago. i still rmb sitting behind your driver seat and curiously seeing the way you drive. i still rmb the smell of yours. but why? why were u just gone like that? why can;t u tell me that the lunch we all had at ayer rajah last sat was the last meal we could have tog? if i knew earlier, i would treat you to the indian rojaks, and will seat just beside you.
uncle, the man who loves car. u just bought a honda 8-seater car. is black and the first time i sat on it, u played la pi xiao xin's video. but, i can no longer imagine that. i will never be able to seat in a car driven by u. i have always wanted to ask for your permission to drive your car. cuz i wanna to hear the comments from you.i wanan u to scold me for reckless driving.
uncle, the man whom i thought your temple was really well controlled. why, such misfortune have to happen on you? i hate it when your health starts to deteroriate last year. i was feeling so miserable knowing that you always felt pain in your intestines. i thought it was all alright now, when i saw u on sat. u looked radiant and healthier. uncle ah uncle. where are you now?
uncle, the man who i have always regarded and respected like my own father. i rmbed the nasi lemak when u bought for me when i went over to your hse to stay when i was 15. you wasn;t even biased. all 3 of us-ben, pam and me have got the same ingredients. chicken wings, otah and egg. u specially went to the market just to get that breakfast for us. i love u uncle.
as what ah ben told me, life carries on. i know i m strong and i shall not disappoint you in life. but the thought of u never being able to see all the achievements i have just saddden me. my heart hurts. it really does.
i hope you will be happy in another world with auntie. you have my blessings. and i hope it is not too late for me to tell you: UNCLE, I LOVE YOU. i really do.
uncle. the only man i truly called uncle other than ah chek. he is always so nice to me. we had wonderful times at hong kong together. he always drove my father, mother and me home. he always fix my computer for me. he loves to go west mall. and he always asks me why i never chio him go. he loves ah gu's toasted bread.
uncle. the man who is the same age as my father. why must u leave so early? why can't u wait for my graduation? i have already thought of reserving a seat for u during my graduation. uncle ah uncle, why won't u be able anymore to send me off to US? why wun u wait for ah jie and ah ben to get married and for u to be a grand-dad den? uncle ah uncle, why did u bear to leave so early, leaving ah jie and ah ben to be orphans? esp when auntie has left all of u so early? i know u are joining her in another world, but why are u gone so early?
uncle. the man who always seems so happy. u have always ask me if i passed my driving lesson. u have always ask me when will i be buying a sports car. u showed me your camera when u just bought it. u showed me your phone which was identical to ben's. i accompanied you and pam and ben to buy your NEC laptop together where i was so auntie and requested for a free mouse. u laugh at me. u said i was super ah soh.
uncle. the man who always like to disturb me with a loud "HOR, meishan". uncle, u helped me to get a computer at $1.5 k where u helped me fix it yourself. uncle, u helped me to wire up my computer wires at home. u always complained that my hse is super messy when u come fix my computer. u always say i m very niam nuai. u always say that i anyhow press the computer and that is why i kanna virus.
uncle, the man i respected so much. i have always praised about u. about how u managed to bring the family up despite the loss of your wife abt 10 years back. do u know that u are so capable? while working, u can cook, do the housework and keep the house so tidy? i helped you move house. i love your curries. i love the way you drive. i love the way u always make fun of me.
uncle, the man who is constantly bitching about your children to me. you always got a bottle of water in your car that u always ask us to wash before entering the car. you are always my mahjong khakis. you always scold me for not knowing how to play mahjong. u once said that if i do that stun again in mahjong, i will have to pao the whole set paying everyone in full. from there onwards, i learn my mistakes. u are also my food guider. always bringing and driving the family to eat at cool places.
uncle, the man who said that your friends mentioned that the japanese restaurant at hong leong garden there was nice. and u wanna try. can i bring you there now to try? u wake up now can? pleaseeee, uncle. i beg you. uncle, wake up la, i know u are just tired and u just wanna sleep. but u have slept too long already. can u pls wake up? pls???
uncle, the man who all will agree that u are super helpful. you have a heart of gold. you know your stuffs. you always tell me how good in com ah ben is. you always ask me abt my dad and mum. i rmbed you got a nice jacket when we went too hong kong last nov. it was green and you liked it a lot. you always complain u are hungry.
uncle, the man who i just saw 4 days ago. i still rmb sitting behind your driver seat and curiously seeing the way you drive. i still rmb the smell of yours. but why? why were u just gone like that? why can;t u tell me that the lunch we all had at ayer rajah last sat was the last meal we could have tog? if i knew earlier, i would treat you to the indian rojaks, and will seat just beside you.
uncle, the man who loves car. u just bought a honda 8-seater car. is black and the first time i sat on it, u played la pi xiao xin's video. but, i can no longer imagine that. i will never be able to seat in a car driven by u. i have always wanted to ask for your permission to drive your car. cuz i wanna to hear the comments from you.i wanan u to scold me for reckless driving.
uncle, the man whom i thought your temple was really well controlled. why, such misfortune have to happen on you? i hate it when your health starts to deteroriate last year. i was feeling so miserable knowing that you always felt pain in your intestines. i thought it was all alright now, when i saw u on sat. u looked radiant and healthier. uncle ah uncle. where are you now?
uncle, the man who i have always regarded and respected like my own father. i rmbed the nasi lemak when u bought for me when i went over to your hse to stay when i was 15. you wasn;t even biased. all 3 of us-ben, pam and me have got the same ingredients. chicken wings, otah and egg. u specially went to the market just to get that breakfast for us. i love u uncle.
as what ah ben told me, life carries on. i know i m strong and i shall not disappoint you in life. but the thought of u never being able to see all the achievements i have just saddden me. my heart hurts. it really does.
i hope you will be happy in another world with auntie. you have my blessings. and i hope it is not too late for me to tell you: UNCLE, I LOVE YOU. i really do.
posted by mEishAn at 7:51 PM
1 Comments:
Dear shan, I understand your feelings, having experienced a similar one, life goes on... I am sorry for this to have happened, and sorry for not being with you when this happened. Take care n be strong, you r always the strong ms i know :)
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